april in diguise

its been two weeks since second semester started and i feel like nothing is happening in school and at the same time like i dont have enough time for everything i have to do.but yeah i think i just need to let loose and let everything out.when that will be.later on when i sleep and wake up and actually write properly and perhaps make music.=).so just for a little introduction.this blog is titled april in diguise because i guess in 2007.i lost myself and the person who i was and now its about finding who i am and yeah...i really cant think.so im going to do some chem to take my mind of things...i shall finish this within the next 24hours...I HOPE!

pray.act.believe for UBC & new beginning...away from madness but for happiness.only time will tell.its too early to know now.hahahaa

hmmm.so its been awhile since ive blogged on this thing but yeah now i actually have time and no pressure to get homework done or rush because i have lots of time.=)

so basically im in the philippines right now and without school and work ive had done lots of thinking...read between the lines

1) i love my familia [crazy bunch of filipinos *ahem* BI *ahem*]

2) i miss my lolo [no comment]

3) never forget the "sun" [smilelove]

4) back on track [young.christian.happy]   

5) unsure.undecided.unknown [no comment]

6) love for expression [passionate dream]

7) push my buttons [mean girl]

8) forgive and forget [no comment]

9) never get enough [hahaha]

10) expect the unexpected [no comment]

if you know me well enough youll understand but knowing me you wont get all 10.hahaha...

soo i guess you thought itd be long.so did i.but i think im going to write some music or do my sudoku book.ill be back and write about my trip and thoughts until next time...

useless reading

i have actually accomplished finishing all my homework.oh but its 6:05am.well i guess thats one allnighter for me.theres a lot on my mind.i just dont know where to start.recent events have certain effects on me.yess i am still upset and long for closure.silly people do not know when to shut their mouths and not say anything in front of anyone (meaning ME).part of me tells me that it was deliberate but who knows with that person.i think about it constantly.the only time im not thinking about it is when im trying to figure out my physics problems or looking for the answers in the pages of the social textbook that we must read and comprehend.bahaha!.its a resolved issue however that one person still sticks in my mind.i do not know why i got all worked up and upset about what i heard i guess its because it gave me a reason to be mad.but it does not concern me anyways.but yeah.i cant really think about what to type write now.hahaa.actually i think my brain is SHOT!.so yeah i just finished putting another load of laundry and i think i will go take a shower so my hair can dry naturally.=).maybe EAT a big breakfast and pack a BIG lunch.=).oh crap.i realized something i was going to.the plans for HSB.hahahaa.good thing i remembered.hahaa.well im going to printout the attendance sheet and activity.GO HSB.yay!.its finally starting up again!.so after school.HSB.lacombe volleyball games.go home and study till i pass out.hahahaa....

its amazing

so school started today.FINALLY!.im actually glad to be back because summer was getting boring.tehehee.i have said to myself over and over again that im finally done and over it.that i wasnt going back.but yknow what i think its actually happening.=).after many trials.i am actually doing it.im moving on and i feel great.seeing him today was just like seeing any normal random friend.NO more raging HORMONES (right Jerry).yknow that whole thing growing up when you should listen to your elders because they are very wise.its true.haha.im not that OLD.but i can say i am much wiser than i was last year.i can actually say that i have no interest or feelings in anyone at the moment but i love it.i feel so free and not tied down.=P.im not saying those last 3years of hoops was regretful because i learned a lot from it.but even though ill always have a softspot for him but ive moved on.i guess i can agree that i am more logical and mature about certain things.but yeah it was soo weird.today i was late for school by an hr.TYPICAL!.haha.anyways yeah.so there were these two new guys in the office sitting there and they were GOODLOOKING!.after everyone kept oogling the newbies.i actually talked to them and like theyre really nice guys.and i didnt have any intention of dating either one of them.hahaa.just yknow get to know them more be friends.like a older sister i guess.guardians as lisa called it.because we are a year older.but yeah.everything is good GREAT!.this will be a good school year and its my last.oh well im going to sleep now i have volleyball tryouts tomorrow.until next timee.see you later alligators.